Well..Got To See The Band Concert And Getting The Results Soon

Well, today was quite okay..Half-day at work then went to meet my friend to exchange with new tickets..went back home to rest..then ard 4.25..went out to bedok MRT to wait for yani and mirah..waited so long and haven't even eat yet...then ard 5 plus went to mac to meet mirah..then I also saw Farhana there eating with her..then yani came and we went off..we take the mrt to tanjong pagar mrt..then mirah went to eat..so tag along...then yani asked for my handphone..that girl arh..so kepo..must see everything..messages, pics..even contacts..then show to mirah also..even want to prank their friend using my number some more..haizz..after that, Sabrina and Khai came and we went off...then went to Starbucks and meet with our other tampinesians..ard 7.10, we went to the venue for the band concert..then got security..when the concert starts, that is when the entertainment began..they showed some vids and i believe that one of them shld have join the drama club coz can really act..the music was damn nice and relaxing...bt sad news. The band teacher, Mr Kenny Tan has retired...he was a kind and good teacher..he is the best band teacher they(the band) ever had..he is one of a kind...Happy Retirement to Mr Kenny Tan! So sad he had to retire..)=

Results nxt 2 weeks..damn scared..Panic!

Got To Watch New Moon and Many Things Happen Too..

Well last week, went out with a freind of mine, which was a girl, to go watch new moon.bt first we went to go makan at mac at TM..then we talked about our lifes..then we went to GV to buy the tickets..quite expensive the price of the ticket..so we went in and watch the movie..it was quite nice though but more on the talking and less action..the people who turn to werewolves..damn! their bodies was awesome..got 8-pack muscle body..especially Jacob( taylor lautner)..damn handsome to the ladies arh..wish i have his body..i can already imagine..hah! my friend also gave me a gift too..then her cousin called her and asked to go home so i accompanied to the bus stop and then go off to meet my family at tamp swimming complex..went home after that..then work, work, work..then tomorrow got outing..hope tomorrow half day can work...then going to watch Avatar soon with my family..



about my friend, she was kind, nice, sweet, caring, friendly and must learn how to have fun bt look depressed and emo..hope i can cheer her up..

Yesterday Was Damn Fun!

well..yesterday was a great day for me..Morning i was working til 1 plus..then went off to Sentosa coz got an outing..so take mrt frm paya lebar to outram park mrt then have to change track to go to harbourfront..then go to vivocity and take monorail to sentosa beach..have to walk a long way to sapphire pavillion...then met up with the blue hoodies..then there get to enjoy...play sportsand play in the rain..pictures were also taken by people who were there..see in Facebook...hard to describe the outing there..what can say is that it was damn shiok!! Must have another outing like this!

Gonna Start Working On Tuesday..And Outing On Wed and Sat

Well, i got a job already..my dad found me a job in his job company..the pay was ok.. $5/hr..so i have to work 44 hrs a week( excluding Sunday and Sat(half-day)).. then my salary will then put into my bank..Then I am starting my work tomorrow..i am still sick..damn..Then wednesday take day off becoz got outing with my friends and saturday off day coz going for sentosa outing..hope it is gonna be fun..My handphone was taken away frm my dad coz of personal reasons( Sorry..kinda personal)...I am gonna miss my adk angkt a lot..coz she is the only one that truly understand me and knows my feelings...she always makes me smile and make my day right again..Sometimes, I even wish she could be m gf but too bad she got a bf...hope i get my handphone back by tomorrow..so i can msg her again..nw i am sick of being stuck at home all the time..haizz.

Enjoyment At TP And SP..Wish It Can Happen Again

Well, last sat was one of the best days i had so far..Had much fun..go to know a lot of people, got to dress up, and also get to party like mad people..everyone at SP enjoyed their time dancing...Even i danced..some people says my moves were cool...in additon to that, I get to know the school better..During the midnight gig, there were two hosts, Annabelle Francis and Shaikh Haikel..people there were all screaming..The gig consists of many bands playing music as Electrico, The Great Spy Experimnet, Fireflies and others too..There was also a fashion show and gotta tell you..the female models were damn pretty...Got to win some prizes..then the gig ree groups: Inno, Inspira and Imagi..I was in Inno team)ended ard 3 plus...then to Vivocity...all the Inno( there were the people chose me to take part in some activities...ended up being third..see some performance...then got to take pic with my friends.



Annabelle And Haikel




Me and Zana





Me and Amanda(Group Leader )





me getting to dress as MJ..kinda embarassing man..( not gonna go show you all...later too embarassing )

Then, last Monday to Wed was also the best days i had! Got to meet new people..meet new leaders( Eric, Rachel, Dillion and Fabian)..those days i really enjoyed. Monday got to meet S'pore idols(Top 5)..got to learn hip hop dance also got to learn computer engineering..quite hard to understand..yeah by the way, never get to experience dragon boat due to the rain..damn the rain!! Then on Tuesday, got to study business course..quite ok..just plain talk and games..then have lunch..then had the rawkers challenge..sort of the amazing race game..got many cheers too..some cheers damn funny..The last day was the best day out tof the three days..although i came late..i was able to catch up with my team coz i called my PL and told him I was late. We went to IT course...check out what kind of courses there are in It and then there was lunch..the food was quite nice though..went for the last course Applied Course..we went two of the courses, chemcial engineering and vet courses( more of the bio stuffs)..then we went to the convection centre(TCC) and got to meet wth the producers and cast of First Class, Sports@SG and Polo Boys...The casts were Max Loong, Jade Seah, Kui Jien, Michelle Chia and lastly Paul Foster..Got to ask them questions..One of my friends go to hug Paul Foster and Max..( Pooja, we knew it was you.haha)..after was party time( jam and hop)..that time was awesome..by the way we got to wear the tprawks shirt and my shirt was signed by many blue hooides...wohoo! Had one last mass dance(learn on the second day)and had our last meeting together and says our thanks to the PL(Peer leader) and CL(colour leader)..i went home..the rest went to eat supper with them..hope this enjoyment can happen again.Here are some pics:





Blue hoodies at the lab..





Faizal Isa, Tabitha and a TP Rawker( on the left is Slyvia and behind is Charles)







Michelle Chia and Paul Foster




Celebs at TP..Max Loong, Jade Seah,....





Sleeq...

Ken and me

Ken, me and Nadine..




My group PLs( from left:Fabian, Rachel and Eric..nt in picture: Dillion) and me






The PLs(peer leaders) and CLs( colour leaders) with me

Exams are Over...Leave The Rest To Luck..

Well. the o lvl exams are finally over..everything is gonna change soon....in the meantime, we can enjoy for now..Gonna go SP tomorrow to celebrate and at TP nxt mon-wed..wohoo!! Then better start to find work..mayb after o lvl cert..become relief teacher...or work elsewhere...yesterday my family and I went to watch 2012....that movie damn shiok...it is a 'must' watch movie..it can take eu off your seats...PEOPLE, YOU MUST WATCH 2012! haha....

Well..i am gonna miss the good memories in TPSS..friends, teachers, canteen uncles and aunties...today is gonna be a boring day..again..well we'll see abt that..

Bye people!
Smile too

Wow..Months Had Really Passed By So Fast...

Well, my o lvl exmas are coming to an end by nxt wed..times really past by alot. Many things had happened throughout this whole year in my enitre life...making gd frens..re-making of friendship..some ppl even became my adk angkt( dun wan to talk abt tht..privacy!)...some ppl show their true colours..some reali disappointed me..while others surprised me...Gonna graduate by nxt year..gonna miss my school so much..having good memories...and friends i have made in school for the last 5 years in my life...i can still remember my first crush in sch..can't tell who..sorry..those who knows just shut it and not need to open ur big mouth...those who don't knw..then don't bother..just ask me...

well..i am particulaly single for the 5 years in sec sch..no exs..seriously i don't have one....bt i kept falling in and out of love in my sch...i don't knw why..i tink she don't realise it bt i do...( and ff...it's nt her ok..i am serious ok!) i gt feelings for her...but i dun noe she gt the same feeling or not...if not, there is still many chances ahead..who knws..maybe in poly, someone may realise that she have feelings for me...damn...i can't help feeling sad all the time...)=

Missing alot of ppl like my adk angkt/(s), and closest friends especially this girl that starts the letter 'F'..nt going to tell who..after my o lvl exams..i am praying to go to S.P or T.P....i so want to get to an accounting course or business with system engineering..can earn alot of money in future...Been busy studying til i got no time to talk to my dear Fanah( my first adk angkt and a fren of her introduce to me to her..)..sorie Fanah...ff..i hope that ur crush will finally be ur one...

Well..kinda lazy to talk alot..haha...left two more papers and i am done my time in sec sch...and btw, ff and i dh patch alik..as in friends ok peoples...

Ok gotta go
Bye ppl!

Thursday: Give My Present To Her, Fri: Got To Watch Transformers 2: Revenge OF the Fallen..The Weekends Are Damn Boring!! School Starts Tomorrow!

Thursday, I went to give my present to my adik angkat and she loved it..Yeah!! She loved it..Yeah!! And she ate the chocolates I bought for her to herself...Then Friiday was awesome..My brothers and I got to watch Transformers 2: Revenge Of The Fallen...the show was awesome that I want to watch it AGAIN!!. And the actors and actress was awsesome..especially Megan Fox. She was damn hot in the movie!! And the Autobots were cool! Saturday was quite boring...Nothing much...Sunday(today)..well let's see what will happen today!

And school starts tomorrow..I WANT A LONGER HOLIDAY!!

Saturday: Celebrate Dad's Birthday, Sunday-Tuesday: Went To KL

Well..it's gonna be a long post..Saturday went out with my family and of course with my dad because that day was my dad's birthday..In the morning, had to go to school for my 'freaking' subject, DNT and around 12 plus, my parents fetched me and go makan at a stall...After we makan chicken rice and then we go eat ice-cream at Swensens at Parkway Parade..I eat sticky chewy chocolate ice-cream and my parents and sibilings ate ice-cream too..Then for a drive and had an accident...Sent the van to the workshop and get repair. Then got another car to send us home...Then at around 7 plus go bbq at East Coast with my mum's family. BBQ alot of food like potatoes, hot dog, chicken and some other food. Then my aunite bought a cake for my dad..then we also eat the cake and went home early because we need to pack for our leave to KL...Here are some pics:

Sunday: Wake up at 6 plus..pack up everything an went to Beach Road and wait for my dad's friend and his family..About 10 mins or so, they arrived and we bought the tickets for the bus..Once we boarded the bus, we quickly got to our seats and sat down..Then some of us slept on the way to KL..The bus stopped at a place..for the passengers to go to the toilet or to eat for a while because it was still a long way to KL..1/2 hour later, board on the bus and continued our way to KL..It took almost more than 4 hours to go there...We reached KL around 2 or 3 plus..Then we found our hotel and checked in our rooms..I had to share room with my sibilings..Unpacked our stuff and went down to see around..Then go makan at a shop..order foood..the fish curry damn spicy!!! Til can make my eyes watery...Like a fork poked your eyes..Then go jalan-jalan Malaysia's Chinatown..then go shopping..there..wah..got to tell you guys..Over there have to bargain alot!!! Then bargain here bargain there...Bought a cap, some shirts..Spent the whole day shopping. About 7 plus went back to hotel and bathed..In the bathroom, got bathtub so I enjoy myself in the bathtub..Then 8 plus went shopping again...!0 plus went back and sleep! Monday was my best day ever!! Wake up early and went down to eat..Around 9 plus went to Genting..Got to take bus and cable car..Reached Genting ard 1 hour plus..There..we find the theme park..The theme park damn shiok! Got cool rides!! I like the roller coaster and the Space shot..that ride is damn freaking SCARY!!! can die with that ride!! I enjoy other rides too like the Go-kart and others too..I enjoy the games too and also kacau Syafiqah( the youngest child in my dad's friend family)..hehe!! Then went back to hotel for a while and later went shopping. I also got took some pics at KL too. Tuesday was quite boring..nothing much..Had to pack up our clothes and wait til 3pm..While waiting the time to past by, we went shopping again at a mall...BUy some stuffs and clothes...At 3, boarded the bus and were on the way home....That's about it..Here are some pics..

My younger brother is the green shirt and with Abang Zurais.


That's Syafiqah with my cap and my younger sister's teddy bear.

Me and Abang Zurais

Me and Syafiqah..Well she look pretty and cute..hehe!! (=

Why Am I Feeling So Sad Since 2 Weeks Past??

I don't know why I am feeling so sad since 2 weeks ago..Ever since she ended our friendship...that I guessed started everything...If only somebody give me a slap..Why do things have to happen badly...Well today, went to school for DNT..good as my teacher didn't come today..Eat my breakfast-luch at the canteen..The malay shop opens..and the pakcik gave me some fried rice..and his daughter was also there( She came yesterday too) with her brother, who just came out of NS( 1 day leave),...then til 4 plus..pack up and stay at canteen..Feelin so sad and tired..Now just came back and posting this....That's it..

Can't help myself being sad always..

Had A Great Time Yesterday!!

Well, I had a great time yesterday..My family and my cousin went swimming at Anchorvale CC there..the swimming place was quite big..Went to find a place to settle down and get changed. Then went swimming..What I like most is the slides, The Multi-Slides abd the TwistSlides...Very 'shiok' when you ride it..I think you should ride it too..It was awesome..Over there too, I saw some people I think I can recognise but I can't seem to know their name..Got two poeple I know..One of them I think was my friend's friend, I think her name was Jasmine...Not really sure though..About more than 90 mins, bathed and everything...Went to eat at MacDonalds..EatBig Mac and my sibilings and cousin and parents ate too. Then, sent my cousin back home. Then, we went back home.

There's more but that's it for now.

Maybe I Should Just Move On?

Now, I guess I have to move on..For the past few days, I have been so sad. Lots of things happened during that time. A part of me is happy that my adik angkat just came back from her NPCC camp. The rest is just filled with only sadness and 'soberness'. One of them is in my friendster. The rest is..I just don't want to tell..It just makes it worse...Some of my friends tried to cheer me up..thanks guys and girls. Well, I just don't know what to do from now on.

Today, I Guess It Was Okay..

Long day ain school...to keep short, whole day was Maths period for four hours..Can't barely stand the periods in the classroom. Then finish class, I went to Tampines and prayed at the mosque with my friends..After that, I went to Tampines 1 and wait for my adik angkat a.k.a ff best friend and ff..I was so nervous cuz this is the first time I meet them in person. Bought them a roses, one for ff and one for her friend..Went out with them..Go out with them..had fun though..3 plus go back to school. Do dnt stuff..and at 5, I went home..

Well that's it..End of post..
Take care!

Wish I want to go out with ff and huda again!
And I want to go out with Fanah Naughty too!
Waiting for 29 June..Thosw who knows this date keep quiet!! Ok?..Hehe

Well, I Guess It's Back To Being Friends Then?

Hello people, how have you ,guys and girls, been ? Well, I gave the present already to her and I hope she likes it..On last Tuesday, I went back with my friend which is a girl that I crushes.Well, today was a bit sad day. Morning to evening was in school the whole day..so tiring. Saw some of my friends...Then came back...on the labtop and used for a while chat with my friends and adk angkat..Miss my adik angkat...and someone broke my heart...I guess it's happening again..Why does this happen to me? Now, feeling so heart-broken..and stress with my freaking DNT thing. I forgot to do something...

Gotta go now!

I Don't Know Whether I Should Let Her Go Or Not...

Firstly, I would like to wish a Happy Birthday to a friend of mine..Happy 14th Birthday, Lisa!! May your wishes come true on this day. Now, on the main post...I just don't know lah. I have feelings ever since I saw her( not m valentine) but now, I have been thinking alot of what to do now and can't find out the answer because she likes another guy..but she doesn't know..I am planning to tell her but I don't know whether to tell or not to tell. I sometimes cried and scream just because of this. I also read her blog and now I feel so lost and confused.

If only she understands me and know how I feel for her. Even words can't seem to describe my feelings for her. I miss her every day, every hour, every minute and second of my entire life...Haizz..I jsut don't know.

Huda or my other adik angkat, if you are reading this please help me cuz I am feeling so miserbale and I have alot of things in my head.

Take care now!
( Feeling miserbalely.....)

It"s Been A Long Time Since I Last Post

Hey people..long time since I update...so my mid year exams was okay I guess. Need to improve on subjects..DNT, Cobined Humanities And English. I want to improve a lot when it comes to my O level exams...Well nothing much though..Valentine b'dae is tomorrow and must buy present by tomorrow..And Ii have kakak angkat..Wohoo!

That's about it...

So Lonely And Exams Are Finishing Soon!

During exams, I feel lonley..go home also lonely..haizz..whatabout my friends? They are too busy with their own things, even all my close friends that includes all my adik angkats and one of my closest of all closest friend...Feel like everybody has just forgotten about me, I guess..Living in darkness around at this moment...Exams are finishing around next week and getting my class t-shirt soon..Not in a good mood..plain mood right now...Study my history around 3 plus to around 6...and 'A' maths later.

Now just feel like giving up and stress out. Just making me sick and feel like killing myself...Too bad still too young to die..SOMEBODY JUST CHEER ME UP FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!! Anybody?

A Wedding To Remember...

First thing, congrats to my cousin, Abang Fadzli and to his new wife, Farah(for short). Today went to my cousin wedding...Went to the bride's place at Choa Chu Kang and marriage stuffs with the groom..Then the groom put the wedding ring to his bride and vice-versa. Eat there...there is mee and cocktail..By the way, the bride look like one of my adik angkat and the name is also the same. There is also this girl who looks like my friend..her face was so pretty and so clean that I every time wanted to look at her...But ai don't know her age so cannot confirm yet. Then went to the groom's place after that. Then saw all my other cousins were there and my dad's brother and family was there..Spent the whole day there. I was also the guy who lead the couple( bride and the groom) to the wedding place and also carry the 'pokok nanas' or something like that..Some of my friends, mum and dad's friends also came. Helped out too and read my book! Dinah, a friend of mine, also came but she can't recognise me..cuz so long she never saw me. The wedding place is quite nice and royal-like..



So tired now..Gotta rest!!

Well, I Guess You Can Say I Am Having A Crush...

I am having crush with this girl. But not my valentine okay!! There's many things about this girl that I am crushing on..She is friendly, smart, pretty and many other good quality..She doesn't even know I am crushing on her...she will know it when the time comes to tell her. Some of myt friends knows. I think my adik adk angkats don't even know her..HAHA!! I guess better not to tell them just yet...Not now. maybe later. Well I have to study now. I want to pass my exams so bad !!! Must pass all!!

Take care now! Going To Be Busy Studying!!

I DIdn't Force Her To Be My Adik Angkat...Now I Feel I Am In Big Trouble And Guilty

Yesterday was really a bad day...Started the day well. After prayers, went back home. Then rest of a while and watch TV and chat for a while..Then chat with ff and one of my adik angkat, Farah, her boyfriend add me in my MSN messenger and tell me that Farah is irritated by me and ask me to stop smsing and chatting with her. He also says I forced her to be my adik angkat..Like what the hell!!!! I never force her to be my adik angkat in the first place..Even his gang almost want to find me..and my younger brother also disturbs her...( Zas, kau and gang nk cari aku...tk payar.Aku bilang discipline master cuz die police and kau and gang nk kena tangkap korang punye pasal..ok..atau kita nk talk through this out??? Macam mana?)

Now, I feel so guilty even I didn't do anything wrong..I just don't know what to do now. Just need some help from somebody please...anyone?? And went to my dad's friend daughter birthday. I need someone's help...Please.

Exams Are Here! Won't Be Updating Much Though.

Well , exams has already started...my modem in my room spoilt..so I cannot use my computer in my room anymore..damn..then must wait don't know for how long..in the meantime, can use my dad's labtop...and so stress right now..must study like mad!! I want to pass all my subjects especially Science and 'A' Maths And 'E' Maths....Then got some problems with my adik angkat...haizz..And I won't be updating much though..And my friendster..won't be updating much though because of EXAMS!! Must work hard to pass!!

Gotta go now..mus study now..
Take care now!!

And to my friends out there, good luck for your exams and study hard!!

Having Problems In My Head That It Makes Me Hurts Alot!!

Today is like the worst day I had. My head seriously hurts alot. Especially today. Skip school parts. I have a lot of problems in my head..worrying about my adik who got brain tumour, ff wif her prblms, adk huda who got problems...AAARRGGHH!! and tonight, adk farah thinks I say her stupid when actually my freaking, pathetic brother says that using my account...just want to whack him like sieow! Some more scold vulgar language.....I feel I should take all the blame for that, for almost everything.... Just let me bare the pain!

I Think I Can Be Her Friend Only And Nothing Else...And I Think I Am Falling In Love Again

I think I can only be her friend because I waited for her answer for too long and I think it's time to move on...But I do feel hard just to move on after asking her...I just don't know..And I think I'm going to fall in love any time soon and the same time have to study seriously cuz 'o level exams coming already', less than a few months away...I think I am in love already...

Too bad you can't know who is it..It's personal , ok people? Personal! I think she doesn't even realise it herself..If only she knew..then maybe..well maybe we may be a couple soon enough..just have to wait..When it comes to love, we have to take things slow.

Bad News In My Life!!

A few days ago, I received the shocking news in my life!!! One of friend of mine got a brain tumour...I am shocked til my entire body felt so numb and barely moved....Almost half-dead...After hearing, I had sleepless night, just thinking what would happen to my adik...I am damn scared and worried for my friend ....and her operation is in overseas..( Insyakallah operasi dia will be a success...Chinese people not need to know these..sorry!)...And one of my close friend, also knew about this. She cried after I told her the news..And soon I too cried ....I also decided to see her before she goes for her operation...What I and another friend of mine can do now is to 'berdoa'(hope and pray) for her operation to be a success....

To my friend:Me and my another close friend will berdoa that your operation will be a sucess...Insyakallah it will be!

I Am Gonna Talk To Her Tomorrow! What Am I Gonna Tell Her?

I don't know what to say to her...I'm gonna be speechless tomorrow....AAHH!! Today was a sad day for me..I guess. Don't ask me why I am sad today..I have been stressful lately and I 'pop' the question..not married ok but ask this girl to be my gf...I am still waiting..Almost a week I have asked her..I have been thinking what she is gonna say..Just thinking just make me worried...What if she says no? Then how can I move on when I'm in love with her? Now my life is so meaningless..I really don't know what to do..

Just feeling so helpless....if only someone if it is the right person that can help me in solving my problems

Yesterday Watch HSM 3 DVD...So Nice To Watch!!

I am a huge fan of HSM from the first to the third..love all their songs and the story...Got some songs that are so romantic..can dream of myself as Troy and my future gf as Grabiella...singing together..Wah!! Can imagine that in my head right now!! Later I am going out with my frenz...I want to get all the songs from HSM 3..it is a MUST for me!!

To My Bro, Rusydi...eh cheer up bro!! What's the matter of you? See you later!!

Gotta go now!!

I am so missing all of my adiks angkat and love them so much and do miss my Valentine!!

I Am Always Not In A Mood...What's the Matter With Me?

Haizz...almost everyday got not mood even though got to see my freinds and mu adiks angkat....Lost an important file.( die!! very important file lost....) ...I feel like each day passed by, I can't be happy for just once in my life..WHY? Can anyone tell me what's worng with me? Sometimes I can't even tell whether it's me...can't really tell.

That 's for it..not really in a mood

School: Sports Day Was A Quite A Boring Day....

Sports Day was quite boring...but get to see my friends and some of my adiks angkat. One of my adik lari for some events..can't remember what events..Damn! But a lot of events she participated...Then talk to my lower sec freinds..they are better than talking to my upper sec...Amirah and her gang was so close to my class...so malu nk talk to her...and one of her friends, lower sec belanja her and her friends...( Amirah, next time ask me to belanja...free of charge...wait..why am I telling you, guys? Who the heck cares!)..So good ..ok keep it short..I ajak my adik to go makan with me and answered don't know...haizz..Then saw Danial( ITE), Haziq, Nazyrul, Namirah and Abbas...talk to them...'blah.......'blah'. Then..skip prize presentation...sec 1 stay back cuz must clean-up..muahahaha!!!!!!.....but I cannot like that..my adik also in sec 1..Then when sports day finish, everybody went out...Wait for the bus no 9..so long must wait..Then went to Mac near my house and buy food of course..Then talk to my adk ff...hehe..I made her laugh...hehe...then chat for a while and now doing this post..Sms my other adik angkat....

I now always have no mood...Ask me and I answer I don't know why.....simple as that. Now must do homework... And put some comments on my friends friendster.....Now, I can't think anything else..Ah! I brought my shades to Sports Day..hehe..look cool mah!

That's about it!

If I Can Get My Hands on Him, He Would Already Be......

2 days back, I chat with my adik angkat...she told me that she fainted twice..I think...cuz all she thought about was her boyfriend but then she told me she broke up already....She fainted cuz she didn't get enough sleep and didn't eat for 2 days...I was damn shocked til I was almost half dead.....and at the same time, so pissed off with her current ex..( Shafiq( farhanh ex 's bfnow)...if you are reading this, I am on the look out for you!! Be prepared..cuz if I see eu, I make sure I break every bone..and I will never let you get away with this..You hear me!!!) After that day, my hands have been crunching into my fists, just waiting for that day to come.....Then at home, chat with my adk huda and ff and saw them on their webcam...so long never chat with them....(ff masih cute..hehe.it's true!..adk huda..whatever I say to you..diam-diam jer..)Great time chatting with them...

Well yesterady, went to Burger King for breakfast..Then went to E!hub..go play arcade...Saw Nazhurah( budak sec 4) and went to watch a movie 'The Unborn'..damn scary the movie is...I think to some, confirm cannot sleep after watching the movie...then went home for a while...then can' t remember the rest...Damn! That's about it..Can't think a lot today..I just want to cry a lot today...(crying...)

Happy Belated Birthday, Zalifa!!!

School Was Best..I Supposed...

Today came late for my early bird..( Next time, wake up early ok, Faizal?..hehe..crazy right scolding myself) and I also brought my present for my adik angkat cuz give her early..her birthday is birthday is on Saturday because tommorow and Friday she might be busy so give her earlier..School start off boring....got to give form teacher ez-link cuz want to make to transit card..something like that....DNT 4 periods..can sleep..wirte alot....got dismiss early cuz I am involved for the assembly..then assembly time go and get my badge and also recite the student leader creed....Then recess didn't eat much..went to buy a bun and HTWO-O..went to eat with Amirus and Reflix...Then saw syafiqah( sec 2) and salam my friends and myelf too!..And then sms my adik angkat to meet me after school in front of the training room..Then went back to class..skip the whole period of school...after school, return the attendance and behavior bk and brought down my present...and go training room..met with Amirus..waited for my adik..then Hidayah came with my adk Amira( sec 2) talk with them..then my adk came and I surpised her with the present that I bought ( Amirus help me too! Thanx Amrius!).She was shocked...hehe( tk payar shock...happy advance b'dae..hope u like the present alot!!) Then walk around and go for infocus...After infocus, meet Iqah( Amirus mataer) and she asked to help her find Amirus...then go find for him...wait for so long then he came..bring to his mataer...and let him layan his own girl...and I saw my adik angkt friends...talk to them for a while..Ard 4 or 5 plus went back wit Amirus but he went the other way....

That's about it!

I Was Feeling Down Today...Almost Felt Like Crying

Today, I was feeling so down in school...cried a bit in class. School was normal. SS quite boring...Chem do practical..still boring..A Maths continue on the new topic. Then, must recognise some more formulaes til I was like damn bloody stress..Recess was after that..Ate rice and Amirah was walking near me til she almost dropped her food...( damn..should help her carry her food. )..Then the rest of the day quite BORING!!! After school, saw my adik's kawan, Liyana Nasuha and uhm...can't remember the other girl name( sorie!) and went to meet Amirus and talk to him...And around 3 plus went back class..got infocus..A Maths and EL...quite okay-okay..A.Maths cried a bit..( don't know why..damn!!) After infocus, straight away went home..

DONE FOR THIS POST!!!

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Return To School..Okay I Today Was Like An Average Day

Today,school reopened..Got to see my friends and some of my adik ankgat....Then got briefing at hall during morning assembly about the chairman and co-chairman investiture's...it will collaborate with the student council investiture's and will take place during assembly on Wednesday. Then tommorow got rehearsal for the investiture...get to see her to tommorow for rehearsal...YEAH!!!...School life today quite okay..MT first 2 periods..quite bored then got ELfor 1 period and after that recess..saw Marrisa and Syafiqah and some of her friends...then go makan..then saw my adik angkat..talk to her whether got saw the boy that likes her..Said no.( Yo, adik, biler nk tgk dier in person?) After that, DNT was okay-okay. Physics was next..Go through some worksheets and got test on Friday. So better study. SS was next after Physics. Took down notes and aslo got test so Friday got SS test and also Physics ...(Sighing....) A Maths last 2 periods at last!! Learnt new topic: Differentiation of Trigonometry...dy/dx of sinx is cosx, dy/dx of cosx is -(sinx) and dy/dx of tanx is sec square x..these things must learnt and memorise it...Then after school, put the attendance and behaviour bk at sch. office..then change to my black shirt ..Went to meet Amirus and talk to him..have to wait for him to finish his conversation with his mataer..and saw Azhimah,Amira(Sec 2) and some of her friends....then placed my bag in his classroom and then foolow him buy his thing and we go TM to buy a gift for a friend of mine...then went back to school and took my bag and go back home..Yeah forgot to say thank Amirus..Kawan-kawan help each other kan? Went back home..That's about it..I guess...The gift of course I keep somewhere secret!!!

The Holidays Are Coming To A Close....So Fast Time Past By

Tomorrow is the start of school already...How was the holidays people? You enjoy your hoildays or what!! Those who didn't get to enjoy..I pity you guys...Don't worry..There's June holidays coming up.Right? Well, my hoildays was ups and downs..like water waves...some days were enjoying and some were the opposite..Alot of things happen during the holidays..especially mine...Got lots to say so keep it short...Monday: It was fun I guess..got to go school cuz got MT thing..then after that went home and chat with one of my adik angkat for a while before meeting..go get change and meet her at Downtown East bus stop...wait for so long..then she came with her friends..then got to wait for her another friend..we go walk-walk at E!hub and go to arcade to 'lepak'( chinese ppl, go ask ur malay frenz what is that word) then her freind come..Then went to Escape Theme Park..luckily sop rainig and oh yeah.we went makan also at KFC..Forgot to brin..g my Nebo card..damn then must pay so much..bloody hell! Then went inside..got takes lots of ride..got take this pic:

Adik, why look away? Malu is it? Hehehehe...

...6 plus went back home...Tuesday: Went to school cuz got DNT thing and my friends and I were the so called mentors...then go out of school...then went to many places in the city and lunch time, teacher belanja us on our food..Damn sedap and shiok...( Thanks Mdm Cheng!!) and around 4 plus got BBQ in school and go makan with my friends and together with Yasmin and her friends..then abot 7 plus go home...Wednesday and Thursday quite boring so need to say anything. Friday was an average day like any other day..Got to go school for my freaking DNT from 9 plus to 12.05pm cuz got prayers and go to Tampines mosque, the Darul Ghufran mosque...prayers ended at 2 plus..then talk to my younger brother friend...Saturday: Went to Pastamania at E!hub...Food there quite expensive but damn shiok when you eat the food. Then go play at arcade...after that, go watch movie, The Race To Witch Mountain...the movie was not that bad..then 1 of my my adik smsed me and we talked thru sms..and she want to introduce me to her cousin and she say her cousin was hot and sexy..I was like what!!Then she also ask whether I want her number..I was speechless..and she say she gave her my hdp no....but I didn't care..have to wait for the sms..Today: Went to Sakura...eat a lot there...of course is a buffet..got so may food to choose from..then go White Sands to buy stuffs and go home..Check my friendster and give comments to people of course...And typing this as well!

Well, tomorrow is school day. My stress will confirm come back when go back to school..But still get to see my friends again and to see her too!! Now got to sleep!

Take care now, people!!

I Have Fallen For A Prank..And I Cried So Much Cuz Of A Personal Reason

Seriously, I was like damn crying like hell...one of my adik angkay played a prank on me...I HATE PRANKS SERIOUSLY!!! She said she don't want to be adik angkat anymore...I was like what the hell! I didn't do anything wrong..and that time I was really having a bad day, so I asked her thu' sms what I did wrong..she says I didn't do anything wrong and she just don't wana be my adk angkat..My parents also know about her( Parents are such a 'kepo'..seriously! every time check this, check that..like what the hell!)..I replied I was sorry for everything that I have done...Suddenly, I felt I lost my trust and the feeling of loneliness fiiled my empty heart because I miss and loved her as an adik alot.....so I creid alot...I even punched my door so hard...luckily never break..I felt I can never fogive myself...Why does these things happen to me..I kept asking myself that.... I was like this:




Then a few hours, my adik angkat smsed me and say she says it was a prank....BLOODY HELL!!! That was my expression. I replied...damn I forgot..( what the hell..what's the matter with me..can't remember what you say...hit urself..)..ah now I remember...I replied that I was still crying( not like a baby, just showing my emotions okay!)..The she says that she is sorry and was just joking..I was still crying.She says she was really sorrie and promised never do that again..And she will still loves me as an abang..Then I stopped crying and washed up my face...

I think that day was my worst day ever...and cannot be forgotten.

Yesterday: Went To Pulau Ubi, Got To See My Adik Angkat

The trip to Pulau Ubin was not that bad. Went there by boat...quite nice, the air was not bad. It took about 10 minutes to reach there. Once reached there, we walked around. Then a tourist asked my dad to help to take a photo of the tourist and her freinds. Then after that, we rented some bicycles and rode off. We cycled off around the island..quite tiring though cuz' need to use ur legs power to go up the slope...but when going down, so shiok and u will go down so fast...and of course you will have to brake when you are going down the slope..cuz might crashed into people...Then cycled an hour or two and stopped at a drink stall to drink and went to the beach ..I took some photos of myself.(post later cuz I dun have the wire to connect my phone to the computer..sorie..)and after that we gave back the bikes....Then when we are about to go home, almost raining ...then go back by boat..now on the way way back so much windy than we first went there...then when reached on mainland , eat nasi lemak and went for a walk..then ate ice-cream( so damn sedap!!!) then went back home....

Once I reached home....went to go bathe ...rest for a while..and chat online..Then got an sms for one of my adk angkt saying she going to Mr TehTarik stall...just ner my house...and I also later going bowling...so replied her that I will see her at the goreng pisang stall, behind Mr tehTraik..then after changing and look so cool, I quickly rushed down while wearing my sneakers..then wait for her for so long..then went to the toilet ...then when I came out she( refer to my adk angkt) went in..I wash my hands of course...then wait for her...hten she came out..she look so damn pretty siah!! The last time I saw her she was weraing like a gangster...hard to explain...now she wore a black shirt and a pink skirt....I was even shocked....Then we talked for a while..And she need to go back to her family cuz her family was also there.....then I myself had to go...And of course still went bowling....

And become an abang angkat to a friend of mine..Yeah!! Now, I have a another adik angkat.

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Having Doubts About Her...

I don't know what to do now....Whether still want to ask or not to ask. After my prayers, went back to school. Go to physics lab for a while...actually got no infoucs but just go back only cuz at home will be damn boring..See my teacher and my friends, then do abit of work except for me cuz left 15 mins...then went down to canteen and saw my friends...And helped the auntie who sellin drinks..that auntie know me very well so helped her..Then Shamir came and talked to him. We talked about an hour or so. I also told him about my past and what I suppose to do now cuz I also told that I want to ask for BGR with this girl, and he gave me some advises that really useful( Thanx, Shamir!)...Then went home abt 4 plus..When reached, I tried some of Shamir advices.

I think it is working somehow! Thanks,Shamir!

Saturday: BBQ! Sunday: Kranji Beach To Collect Clamps!

Saturday:

Saturday so damn shiok. Morning go out and makan breakfast with family..Around 1 plus come back home..Then wait for my friend's message what time go there..Around 5 or 6 go there..Then wore my my new shirts and jeans..Then wore my new sneakers..Converse sneakers...look..cool right?

Then when to the Costa Sands Resorts...waiting for yao feng..then my other friends also come..Esther, Joreen, Hui Min and Hazirah...( Ceh budak tu pakai tundung seh...lagypun macam mak i seh biler pakai tundung..hehe..seriously( Chinese ppl no need to know))..Then go find the chalet block...so far the block...like finding a needle in the hay stack..Then finally, found it...Go inside the room and put my bag there..Go change to my red singlet..And go for a walk2...buy a drink and went to the swimming pool..But of course didn't go swimming..Just looking around. Then saw Yao Feng carrying things so quickly drink finish and helped him...Met him at the gate and helped him carry things to the chalet.Then brought to the bbq pit..Then Reflix called me...cuz he don't know where is it....Then I sms him to meet me at the entrance...wait for him for so long..10 mins then see him with his mataer..Once they came in , I escort them to the chalet...On the way, we talk and talk....then my friend, Hou Hong started to do the bbq and I and sum ppl help to fan...Then the real thing start at 7pm..then Reflix send his mataer home with his mataer sister....then he came and was lost again...Then go find him again...Then came back and started to bbq the food...So hungry...Then some of my classmates came 2.. the I go change back my shirt...Then got some food already ready to eat..got crabsticks, chciken, hotdogs....then eat some..Reflix help to fan...So funny the way he fans...Should see him fan...Then about 8 plus, Farhan came with Danial and Asyiq...andthey bring their guitar along..Then we talk2 alot and Farhan show me how to hold and play the guitar..cuz I'm not pro at playing guitar:

Then talk with frens..then one teacher came...Mr Kenny Tan came...At 9.15pm, I packed some food to bring home. Some chickens and bbq prawns...By then some of my friends went back.Then, after I went out, went to mac and saw Frahan and his friends...Then we talk2 and laugh a lot til my stomach hurts a lot from all that laughing...Then took bus 17 and went home. By the time I reached home, I put the food in the room and go straight to sleep..cuz quite a long day.

Sunday:

Sunday, my family went to Kranji beach...so damn bloody far..go there to collect clamps..so borin..on the way , I slept..so tired from yesterday. Used up so much energy. Reached there about 5 plus...over there kinda smelly...phew!!Then saw my dad's kwn and the anak-anak...over there here music, eat-eat some keropok, and took some pictures. Later I show the pictures.My dad and my adik-adik managed to find and bring back some.Then went home ard 7 plus..So quite a day! Damn I delete all the pics..only got this pic only..Sorie people :

That is me ( of course!!)..and Ain..I am older than her..seriously!!!

Photo-taking Time, People!

Today was my class photo-taking day...Yahoo! I brought my shades to school..Hehe..teacher says can bring so can bring lah...Then skool time quite ok. Dnt 4 period no teacher in charge...yahoo!!Then go for assembly....quite boring that I can sleep. And saw Amirah. I think she also boring..talk,talk,talk........for 1 hour...and then recess( It's about time!! Can sleep all day, you know..) Then go buy a bun and H-TWO-O...cuz the stall got long queque and lazy to wait...Then, English..boring..skip to next period..CME free period..Then relax..after that lastly A Maths..can 'tahan' for the last 1 hour and then school finished...Got and makan then go for infocus..Infocus for Maths and end at 3.30..


After that, photo-taking time, class! I bring my shades to the photo-taking and check it out, my shades!





Cool rite. Firstly, do formal class photo..then do 2 candid photos and then we take 2 more phots. Then got take 2 more pics in a group at a certain place... and I , Yao feng , Benjamine and our teachers take pictures...Then our infoucs time finishing so need to go our another infocus cuz left 5 mins left..Then I go take a pic of myself with my shades in the toilet. Cool right? Hehehe....








Then after that, go home..Wait for the bus no 28 wait for more than 30 mins so long. The wait for 45 mins the

bus just come. Then 5N2 boys also go inside the bus..Then, in the bus, listen music and take pic of myself again..Don't know why must take pic wiyh my shades...Like so cool with my shades on!

Then reached home about 5 plus and keep my shades in my drawers. No need to show off...Hehe..then. bathe do hwk, and go sleep.Long day in school.

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Me? Having A Bad Day? Of Course!

Today was a no-mood day. School went to school, almost late...the change of allocation of my classroom cuz of my dear friend. Broke an arm..( ouch!)..Then must shift alot of things...morning almost kena scolded..like what the hell.Then can no longer see Amirah anymore outside my class...( want to cry...)..MT perod boring...then Englsih period..learn new things..Synonyms. I guess so..Then have recess...( why have everytime monday recess early?)..Then eat my food( the rice stall) and eat with Reflix, and Farhan and Syakir...Then, Yao Feng came and discss sumthin with Frahan and Reflix...don't know what..bbq..I heard rumors abt this..( then never invite me? what the hell!....then saw Farhan give $20....zirah, u also involve is it?) Thenafter recess, go for DNT, do corrections and do journal..After that, go for physics lesson..Fail my test..First time, fail my test and I was feeling down tat time. Then got A.maths last! do lots of work,,stress lah!

Then after school, stay back at library to do work...Then call my adik angkat and talk2..then I was still feeling down. Almost every day I always have no mood. Why? I myself also dun noe ?
Gotta go!

I Can't Stop Thinking About My Valentine!

Today got permission from my valentine to mention her name..( Drums rolling please!!) You want to know her name? Well here goes. Her name is Siti Amirah and she's in my school but in different class, of course! I'm definitely in Sec 5 and she is in Sec 3 and we both in the same stream( in Normal Acad)...She is in 3N1and for me in 5N1( dun like to call 4E6..don't sound nice)...I had a crush with her since last year. Could she really be the one for me? Everytime I see her outside her class cuz her class just near my class. Just a class apart. I eveytime want to talk to her but I was too afraid but one day was brave enough to talk to her. That day was Valentine's Day. She always with her friends so kinda hard talking to her and her friends always calls me name..( like kena bully by girls...)But I don't care what her friends say. What I care the most is her. There's something about her that made her really special to me. It's not how she looks, or anything else. I also don't know what it is but I can feel it.

Soemtimes we message each other( i started first and then she sometimes reply cuz she like everytime busy)and chat online. Then my friend, Reflix wrote a poem about me and her..(Thanx ,bro!)Actually he wrotes a lot poems so I ask him he can help to writeso he says he can. Well, here the poem goes :

I have eyes but I don't get to see her
I have lips but I can't get to kiss her.
I have ears but I don't get to hear her voice
I only have the voice to say her name.

To pray, to hope to wait, to wish that she will feel the same.
I only have the heart to care for her.
The heart to miss her deeply,
The heart to love her fully,
In my heart, that's where you belomg

That's it. I think it is really sweet and romantic...Jeesh, wish I can write like that but poems must come from the heart A friend of mine told me and I belived that's true. One day I will be a poet just like Reflix cuz he is one of a good poet that I know . Now back to my post...The 2nd line of the poem makes me blush alot but only for 30 secs I guessed and then I was okay. If I got any problems, I just think of her and Bam! My problems are gone. During 2.4 km run, I was damn bloody tired but she kept me going . She is like an inspirational person to me, I guess cuz in my mind ,she always supports me no matter what. Is this too much? I guess so.

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Today Was A Bad Day After All! I Even Cried Too!

Yup! It's true that today is a BAD day that I wanna shout until I have no voice. Skool was kinda boring....except for recess.my friend,.Reflix ( nickname)was having troubled with his mataer or gf in el....(Dude, you got friends to talk to like me, Farhan, ( many of ur frens too) and we can help alright?) And infocus, Reflx was in a no-mood condition. He dazes and dreaming off. I do pity him a lot. I also got no mood even school time and do't know why. Then, my friend, Aisyah called me and told she got a presentation and she had to present to the school. Then , during physics time( school time), I call her and she didin't pick up. Farahanah picked up and talked....( Farhanah, if u are readin this, asal marah dgn i nie apa hal? I tk buat ape2 salah per....ke tk der mood)Then hung up....After school, saw my sweet valentine with her friends go toilet and I had go office to put the attendance/behavior bk and go library to put my bag in locker. I thought straight away go for prayers and saw Reflix and Farhan so I wait with them cuz they waitin for someone( mataer) . We walked together until we reached at the place got ttraffic light ...I went straight and Reflix, Farhan and flix's mataer go right n go mkn( ekh gi sembahyang tk...tk gi dpt dosa tau! hehe^^ but betol per..) Then, o.t.w to mosque called Aisyah and talk2 ......Then when reached the mosque, gotta hang up Saw some of my frens( and then salam ....other those who don't know what I say, then forget it) and in the meantime, I messgae some of my friends( mostly girls than noys cuz i know more girls than boys). Then few mins later, prayer started and ended at 2pm.




Then go back to school by 2.10..Saw Marrisa nd her usual kawan/friend...( Marrisa, asal mata merah..sakit, gi doktor larh..) and talked to them and after that go infocus..after chem, physics infocus, all so restless cuz physics teaxher never come..I sms my frens again and go off at 3.40pm. After that, go see Ms Jo and Lewin at Drama Rm...not bad the room...those in DRama, you will be surpised 2morow!! Hehe^^^^.....Then went back home by 4.55..so precise and then went to sleep for a while...Woke up at 7 plus. I saw my hdp got 2 messages from Aiyah saying that she don't want to be my friend anymore. I was shocked at first and was like wth( wth= what the hell).....I didn'to anything wrong what. Then I on my dad's labtop and saw my freindster and gt 2 comments from Farhanah and I don't understand again..I .Then I went to bathe ( and my heart is crying..what is going on?) cuz gotta go for religious class...( Damn! Why the heck is my heart still crying)...Then during my religious class, kept smsing Aisyah amd she want to be my fren again....Now I confused....So complicating ...Then religious class ended late. Went home and read my friends blog, Reflix and his mataer blog seperately...Their latest post so sad to read that my heart continued to cry some more...

Cannot write anymore...I crying.
Sorry!

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Started Off Good....But In The End, Not! ( Upside Down Day)

Today was a quite an up-side down day. Skool was good. 4 periods of DNT and no teacher...Yahoo! Then after that got CE...boring and then was recess. Yeah, makan time! Then eat.......after recess, english, go thru answers, then CME also boring and lastly A- Maths.....learnt new formulae, actually just revision of last year. Then after school, had a break and prepare for MT oral.....Then 3pm got oral and I was the last three..gotta wait for so long...

Then, it was my turn. The teacher was the same like last year. After reading the passage, the teacxher says I read well but msut know where to stop or mpause. Conversation time makes me a lot nervous cuz must use the correct Malay word. And the topic not that hard. In english is about Healthy Diet, i think? -_-??...Nvm, then 'talk','talk',talk'........the my turn over..and go walk2 around the school and saw Marrisa and her friend. I talk2 with them and I ask for er email so I cann add her in friendster and MSN( so brave! ask a girl for email..hehe^^..).Marrisa, I know ur boyfie so I keep it to myself....Then waited for Irwan( aka Reflix) and Farhan...and thought want to go home together but Refilx wants to go home with his mataer...And I need to go home early...later parents complained.....

Then, at home, my life turms up-side down. And this thing kinda long and hard to cut it short. I don't knwo how to explain and if I write it down, painful to continue ..So sorry!

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A Good Day Today, I Guess?

I had a good day, I guessed. Reached school on time( luckily not late...). First two period got Social Studies,quite confusing...must learn lots of things seh! Economic impact, social impact, environmental impact...then must learn all the strategy how to solve the impact/(s)..And then after SS, got chemistry..go through acids and bases( boring lah...) and must tear some papers from theory workbook...Then , do some work on the papers...the questions...okay..skip to a maths..got the 3rd highest in class( Yeah!! and full marks: 40/40 and get Ferro Rocher...) ..Then recess...so many people queueing up to buy food so have to wait......In the meantime, I shared my Ferro Rocher with my valentine( hope you eat i), one of her friends and myself..Got only 3 three chocs...sorie ppl if u didm't get one. But I was kind enough to share than being selfish person.....Then after school, go mkn...and go infocuz( A maths and EL) ..Then back to boring days....


(Sighing...)
See Ya!

I Feel I Have Done Something Wrong

I don't know but I feel that I have done something wrong. Is the change in me? Or the friends around me ? What's the matter with me?-_-??......HHMMM!!!Can anybody tell me what's the hell is the matter with me? or am I the only one that is nuts? i feel like everybody's trying to avoid me as if I was invisible not invicible.

Then , some of my frens changed as well. In class, outside skool frens. AAARRRGGGH! What's the matter with me people? Tell me, won't ya? I do not know what I've done. So please, I am begging what's the matter with me!

Yesterday, I Had A Great Time !

Yesterday was a good day for me! Wake up ard 7 plus..dun noe 4 wat reason...I and my family ,except my 1st ygr bro(still sleeping), went Swensen to makan breakfast. The breakfast at swensen so damn nice and delicious. Wish can eat there everyday, more shiok! Then, went back home. Went to bathe and get freshened up. After that, sms, sms, sms my friends,'blah','blah'...............

Then at night, I was chatting with a friend of mine....Wah! Chattin wif her can seriously make my face really red.....So RED! Then saw her on webcam and 'Aiyoh'! I saw her face and she was damn cute. Then she call me Mr Lonely and I called Ms Cute!( hehe^^). My heart was pounding so fast as if I was going out for my first date.........( I am Mr Lonely for certain reasons!). Then had to go offline but we still smsed each other. And I called once and talked to her. So I did have a gd time after all! Hehehe^^^^....

Sorry, can't tell who is Ms Cute! Privacy people!
Hehe!!^^

Another Close Friend Has Gone! Why Does This Happen To Me?

Today, another friend left my heart. I knew a few days or weeks.....Why? I don't understand why. (Sigh...)what's wrong with me? Why does it happen to me? Why!!!From yesterday ti'l now, I can't forget what happened. My close friend is a girl and I call her Farhanah..tat's her name. Now she tell me not to disturb or call or sms her anymore.....In my opinion, I think she doesn't want me to be her friend anymore. As today, school was boring...Like got no mood to study lah!....When going to the mosque, I talked to her friends and had a very long talk. And I hate one of her friends...sorry can't remember the name...but seriously., she( referring to one of her friends) really maes my heart boil like crazy...Then, I talked to the other friend( i knew two of her friends) and she was more friendly..(Aisyah, you are so friendly and a bit funny....)..Then, my prayers started so gotta go hung up..And after that, gotta go back school coz got infocus/extra class( chem and phyics). Then in chem infocuz, Farhanah sms tell me.....( the whole thing is on the 3rd line )...I was really upset deep inside my heart..I knew she didn't like me but I do.



Now, I serioulsy don't know what to do from now on. What do I do now? Should I just move on and go for my valentine...but it's hard to forget her( refering to Farhanah).....AAAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!! Then at night, I talk to Aisyah on my problem thru sms and I was at my religious class.....She also said that her friends not going to Junction 8....cuz 2morow is aisyah b'dae....then her frens cannot go....Aisyah said I should go for my valentine......I just don't know lah!

Is it so hard to make a decision when given two choices? Why? Why is it so freakin hard to make a decision?
(Sighing...) ..Don' know what to do.
Can't write anymore

Baddest, Okay,Then Bad Again! What's With Today?

Hai....today was quite a day, I think?! Wake up early like crazy around 6am cuz gotta go for my early bird progamme and was Malay. I do suck at Malay...quite diffuclt to understand...the idioms, the compre( section c)...If only can use the dictionary rhen better..but too bad can only use in P1..some more my oral nxt Wed( why so fast..damn! Gotta practice....as the saying goes: Practice makes Perfect. And today is my valentine's friend birthday( Happy birthday to you Sab!)Now back to my post...My dad sends me to skool by bike...Damn fast ah my dad went....til hard to see what is in front. Reached 7.05am and went up to Blk D( i think?) at level 3...Then saw my ml teacher in charge ...then give us work...Now, the baddest day start..Suddenly, my hdp vibrate..and I answered outside...one of my close friend,of her friend said i cannot talk to her cuz she got no mood to talk. I wondered why. That keeps me thinking why...the early bird progamme finished at 7.45am...after that , school start..Kinda boring...and I almost lost my wallet ( cconfirm die seh if lost) luckily got find in the office. .Then after skool , my fren kacau my valentine andher frens( zirah, kepo siah kau ni...tk der lain benda nk buat).Then, my valentine replied salah ker...I was super malu a.k.a shy..so I quickly went down and it was okay.

My dear close friend, why you do not want to talk to me? Am I ur close fren? What happened to the friend that I know a few days/weeks ago? Did you change somehow? I do not want to make the same mistake again to my ex-close friend. Pls talk to me.
I will be waiting!

Mr FDT

Ex- Friends: Foe/ Strangers Or Still Friends? And Can I Forgive Myself For What I Have Done?

Friends can turn to foe or strangers if we do not trust each other and many others reason too! After two-three weeks of breaking,-up of the friendship, I decided to talk and asked for forgiveness and it happened yesterday. I talked to her and saw on her webcam...Still never change..look the same. (hehe..^^..)..She was that time got no mood. It was all cuz of her freakin BF lah! Killing 'hym' is my no.1 thing in my list but she said no need to punish..Later 'God' will punish hym( padan muka kau...how dare you mess with her feelings!!!! Tk per..nanti Tuhan marah kau ..kau punyer pasal lah)..Then, we talked and talked....talked a long time..don't wanna say a lot..lazy to write talk,talk.....She says she can be my fren again. But one thing that is stopping me. I keep asking myself..Can I forgive myself for what I have done for my actions?..Isometimes keep blaming myself for what I did and done.



To other people, they can just forgive themselves like that. like easy for them to say. As for me, it is dfficult for me to forgive myself. Why? I don't even know why....Sometimes, I can't even explain what I have done. If only someone who will just help me to forgive myself....

Gotta go!..I can't write anymore!
Aites!

The Day Is Here At Last! Yesterday Is Yet The Best!

YEAH! Today is the day that I have been waiting for. It is Valentine's Day and Yahoooo! I don't know why when it comes to that day, I am so Hyper!Today was the best day ever!( Yet stll depressed). It was a day before V.Day. I was prepared, I think?!Roses?Check!Presents?Check!V.day card? Check! Yup...I was prepared alright! Just Nervous!( feeling like peeing my pants...hehehehe!^^... but nah!)..This is the first and my last time doing this personally. My friend, Irwan helped though.( Thanks for your advcie and everything else!!^^...I really appreciate!..And thanks for being my friend too!)He asked my valentine to meet me behind my cca blk and tell her to come alone after school.After school finished, I ask Irwan whether can use his cologne cuz his cologne smells totally nice and long-lasting so when I meet her, I smell nice and body-odour-free. No girl likes a smelly, stinky boys so I put on....Wait for so long...and I ask Irwan to help me find her and he said he still she in class so I went up to see. I went in and when I was about to give, suddenly got teacher inside...Feels so much like a fool. Damn you 'cher'! I quickly ran out of the class and hid myself. Then I sms her what time she finished...Wait for a few mins, then she replied and said she just finished . Then she called but I didn't pick up cuz I was rushing down so get missed call.Then I sms her to meet me behind my CCA block alone...I want to give her personally ( like gentleman..hehe!) ...Then when she came she got my 2 roses that I ordered earlier...and I thought she never get so I go and get another 2 roses from school council...I was so shy that I was about to blush but cannot adnit my blush so I hid my blush and be confident. I gave her my gift and the card too! She said thanks ( but I think she won't admit anything...though I had a crush on her ever since last year..and 1 of my friends say I should 'kiss' her on the cheeks and cabut..but don't want. Later, she thinks I am weird and don't want to be my friend so I didn't do that...When 'we' become B..G.R , that's if we get to become(insyakallah/ hopefully)..then maybe can...I think about it first lah!) and she went off with her friends...Her friends were like so 'kepoh'/busybody like makcik when I gave her the gift....When she left, I also rushed cuz I was late for my Friday prayer! I had to ZOOM! to the nearest masjid a.k.a mosque . Luckily I made it in time...Phew! After prayers, I sms her I was late and she laugh..( don't let me tickle you..then you know!). I also tell hopefully she likes the gift...and she likes it..( Cute right?..like me right..Hei what I am telling this..Damn! I'm blushing!(rubbing my cheeks)..)Then I went back to school, got infocus..why got infocus ? If don't have, then better! I can follow my valentine( like she allows me like that!)....Kinda long story right? Hard to summarise lah! Must tell the whole story..then bettter..My 'summarisation' kinda difficult......That's it..I think I will never forget that day!

See Ya!
Mr FDT

A Close Friend Gone..A New Friend Will Come And Damn You, Yani And Irwan!

After losing a close friend, I was really upset and sad about it...I checked my friendster and saw this girl...She was my brother's friend cousin! Now we talked like almost like close freinds but not that close and I cannot tell her name..later she very shy..i just call her 'she'. 'she' is a friendly,caring ...not too mention cute..serious ..she has a cute laugh and a a cute smile, and she sa i good-looking , freindly caring...I was blushing like .my face was so red.. Now back to my post.Yesterday,after school, I went to follow my friend, with his girlfriend( Mrs Tiger!) and also one of our friends go and makan at Parkway Parade. Took no 31 beside our school and go to the bus stop. My friend and his gf playin around..i jealous ahh..still single. I called 'she' cuz i was bored to death..Inside the bus, 'talk','talk',talk' and inside the bus my friend duduk dgn his new gf, after askin his gf sister permission to 'state' with her. My other friend, Farhan, sat behind me...and then I continued to talk to 'she'. Then I saw my friend like kissing her...I was like GROSS! AND EEWWW! and inside the bus....that's my new nightmare seh! I even tell my friend and I was shocked..till I myself was awed. But they were talking to each other ear.....but I didn't believe.....until now I just can't forget it.AAAHHH! What's wrong with me? Damn! Then when reached Parkway Parade, I gotta go back my home cuz my little bro and my little sister want to come home and the house door was locked. That's what my mum said so I quickly apologized to my friends and rushed back like hell!



By the time I reached home, they were inside the house. My 1st ygr brother inside. Damn! Go back for no reasons and damn to my brother.His prepaid low. Now let's talk about 'she'. Talking to her was the best. She said one of her friends' wan to 'tackle' me but it was a joke. LOL! I feel like talking to her everyday and I don' t know why. Today, i was quite okae. Only after skool, i was mad. I met yani near the canteen seorang and to come alone. After I admit everything , she said she will tell my valentine and then my surpise is all over. Irwan, damn your adik angkat cannot keep secrets is it? Abang angkat tk tahu jaga adik ke?( chinese people, you do not need to know these cos it is malay..dduhh.). On Friday , it is the time I give my presents and I cannot wait for that day to come..

Signing off,
Mr FDT

I Had A Great Time When Suddenly I Lost A Friend, I Lost My Mum's Trust.....What Will I Lost Now?

I had a great time yesterday. I went out with my freinds, Irwan ,Farhan and Danial. We were supposed to meet at the Tampines MRT AT 1...they came late..damn you...wait for so long like around an hour! When they came, we go to TM, not tampines mall..hehe...We walk2 around..go Mini Toons , the shop nxt to it..urban concepts...i and irwan finding our gift for our valentine...i gotta find something for my valentine..has to be cute( like me ..hehehe!!) . After that , we go Century Squrare and go makan2 frist..we all hungry til our stomach growling...GGGRRR!!! Me and irwan eat prawn noodle....then danial eat spaghetti( ekh tk kenayng(full) ekh?) After that, we went to Lovely Land....WOW got a lot of things to buy man! We took about 45 mins (max) in there. For me..i bought a present and a card too....sorie I cannot tell what it is...Only my valentine would only knows..if u know who is my valentine ......Then we decided to go where next..White Sands, Causeway Point( no way too far!), Parkway Parade...Set!..We go there take bus 31 and we walked there. Then I go and take money from POSB bank..( damn must bring money nxt time). Then we go eat abit at Long John Silver...There we saw one of our friends, Namirah. She was like cleaning ...kesian nyer....i pity her ...After eating, irwan help by helping with Namirah by throwing our rubbish..what a helpful friend I and Namirah and Farhan and Danial have...Then we go walk2 around..danial and irwan talk so private....( Korang ckp aper ahh..discuss dgn kiter ahh)...Then we thought of going Danial's house and we took bus 31 again and go back to tamp interchange. Once I reached there, I went to toilet at Mac. Then Farhan call and say everybody went home..(damn lah u all!). Then the worst thing happened., I lost a good friend, a very close friend. She is my special freind Now, I can't longer contact her anymore and I don't know why. I think it's her friends and her mum. To them, I am like distarcting and irritating her. which may affect her studies. To me, I did not do anything wrong to her. I only invite her to go eaat with me and she say no. I understand that but her friends don't understand me at all. After 3 months of knowing her, it is like our friendship has now longer. It's like a part of me has disappeared just like that. I never did anyhting wrong and now she won't longer be my friend anymore. I feel like crying .........after 3 months, is that long? Knowing her after these months, I thought we are good friends but now ,we are now like starngers to each other. After that, it is like I never knew her at all! I thought I had some feelings for her......Just forget it lah

Then after that, I lost my mum's trust. I didn't tell the truth...and lied to her. I said that one for my fren and she can detect whether people is lying. Damn...after that, my parents tech me and we went to E!hub and go bowl but not me. I go to arcade and play a lot of games...Then my parents and my sibilings at the bowling area. Then my dud want to talk to me like why i lie, and ask who was it for...after talking, then he decide to talk to my mum....And my mum understood. Then I was okay...Now what? I do know what to do..

Gotta go.
See ya!

Now, My Heart Is Truly Broken. Can It Be Mend? Or Not?

Today was the WORST day ever! After school, I was supposed to meet my special friend for lunch and I was late. Once I reached the Simei MRT, she waited for me, together.with her friends. I was so shy that I moved to one side and she came alone to me. Then she told me I was late and she needed to go back to school to see her history teacher. I said one day, we will eat with each other. Then, she went off with her freinds and went back to school and I went back to school to see my Drama friends/crew. In the MRT, I felt like my heart was broken and I can hold onto it. Once I reached my Drama area, I started to cry. I can't take the pain away from my heart. My instructor saw me and I told her everything and her boyfriend also knew. Sometimes, I can't control my emotions and people won't understand my feelings but I DON'T CARE! I sms my school friend and asked for help but he want to be alone with his girl-friend ( not girlfriend yet ). What kind of friend? Duirng the Drama, I was like no mood and do not want talk to any of my Drama friends except for my instructor and her boyfriend.Then, one of her freinds called and told me to stay away from her and said I got no time with her. Once she hanfg up, I was even mad and felt like SCREAMING LIKE HELL! I was like what the hell and felt like dropping by handphone.That was the only chance that I can have lunch with her and now, I can't. Finally, my heart is broken. I was speechless and can barely speak. I thought it could go according to plam but in the end, it turned to a disaster. I thought we are freinds? What now? Are we still freinds or strangers to each other ?
I wanted to cool off...I tried to close and went to sleep. End up sleeping an hour and a half. After waking up , I left for home, I still felt that my heart was still broken.

If you are reading this, my special freind, you seriously broke my heart. This is my frirst and last chance to go out with you for lunch. Your friends should not scold me,..you know what they said. It really makes me sad and angry at the same time. They say I should not layan you. Did you agree with that? If you agree, then you seriously break my heart into million pieces. If you disagree...then ..I don't know hat to say as I am now sppechless and .Sorry.....I can't continue writing this..It is too painful for me to continue on.....

Dear viewers, I am sorry if I can't finish my post. It is painful. to carry on writng this post and to me, it is emtional .Anything jsut post comments on my friendster: Mr FDT Was Born..(AAAHHHH!!!!!!)

Really sorry.

What Do I Do Now? Hurt Him Or Save Her?

I am now in distress. Two days ago, my special friend called me and told me her problem. After hearing it, I felt fed-up and ous towards her boyfriend. I felt like KILLING him badly and make sure his face will be broken. She was crying so badly that she made me cry too. If I knew where he stays, I'll make sure I chased after him and make him say sorry to my friend. She said her heart was broken and he is the only one who can mend or heal her heart. I gave her some advice and I ran out of advice. In school, I was so fed up that I can barely concentrate on my studies and the same time I pity her a lot. I know how it feels though I had never been in a B.G.R before. At that night, we talked through Messenger and talked about her problem. It's like choosing between friends or family and it's really hard to choose. If I hurt him, he cannot talk because I will broke his face by then and if he cannot talk, how he wanna to talk to her?

Maybe I talked to her when I go out with her for lunch next,next Monday. And I hope her relationship with her boyfriend will last forever til' the Day of Love: Valentine' s Day which is 3 weeks and 3days and counting. If she cries again, I'll make sure I will run like hell and chase her boyfriend and ( my special friend boyfriend, if you are reading, BETTER WATCH OUT!!!). Even, at this very moment I am mad. As for my friend, you should call him Now!! and talk to him. If you don't feel confident, how are you going to end your problem? Want me to talk to him? Of course, you will say NO! so be brave and call him, OKAY?

Gotta Go...See ya. And please do comment .....
Signing off
Yours faithfully, Mr F.D.T

One Day, She Will Be Mine And Always Be In My Heart

It's been a long time since I call her my dear. It was a month since I met her and right now, she has a boyfriend and as for me, I am just a friend that was left behind. I still cared for her though she has a bf and hoped she will study hard so she will go to a polytechnic/ JC so as to get a course that she liked. As for me, I have to study extremely hard as I have 8 more months to go to my O level exams but there is something distracting me.Maybe is my feeling for her because what can I think is only her and that's all. I just don't know why I can't stop thinking about her . Is it wrong to do this or is it just love? I cannot control this feeling and I wondered how am I supposed to control this feeling. Valentine's Day is coming and I can't wait for that day and she too can't wait. Sometimes, everyday I feel like our friendship between me and her are drifting away like the stormy sea, blowing a ship. On the 13th Feb, I will recommend giving a lot of love songs to the radio and celebrate that day. She will be going out with her new boyfriend on the actual day and will have a romantic day together while as for me, I will stay at home. Now, I am kind of jealous that she has a boyfriend and I, myself donn't even know why.

In my school, it's windy and when it blew my face, it reminds of my memories of her like meeting her. talking to her on my handphopne and lots of more. It was like the first time we taled and it is as if it was yesterday. I missed her so much that I wanna hug her a lot and wished not to let go. I don't know what to say right now and at the same time very emotional. I will one day wished upon a star that she will be mine and always be mine in my true heart one day.

New Boyfriend, New Bodyguard On Standby!

Hey there, viewers. Mr F.D.T is here. Well, you hvae known and read the last post. For my heart, it is stll leaking out. I don't know how much I can take. I'm later calling the doctor. Few days back, she went out with her new boyfirend and you all knew what HAPPENED?! OMG!! They went to the park together and so romatic ( sorry, can't name the park) and guessed what they did. I am not going to tell as it is a private thing that they did and she might scold me or even worse won't be my freind forever. So I am not going to tell, I hope you, viewers understand why. It is hard to make new friends especially her as she si the girl that I can share my problems with unlike those in my school and in my class. They won't help to solve any of my problems of mine. She is the most understanding to me. Not even my closet freinds will be as close as her.

I told her to warn her new boyfriend to make her sad or break her heart but she didnn't so I telling you publically( refering to my speciual freind boyfriend and don't be a blur 'sotong'). I'm serious about and don't take a joke on this. I swear it WON'T BE PLEASANT WHEN YOU MESS WITH ME!!!!! YOU BETTER NOT PLAY WITH HER HEART OR BREAK HER HEART OR EVEN MAKE HER CRY AND IF YOU DO, I'M COMING FOR YOU SO WATCH YOUR BACK!!!! Now, back to my post, I will be on standby and friend( refering to my special freind), if anyhting happens, just call me anytime and don't hesistate to call me alright. I definitely pick up my handphone. Alright, gotta study ...

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