Friends can turn to foe or strangers if we do not trust each other and many others reason too! After two-three weeks of breaking,-up of the friendship, I decided to talk and asked for forgiveness and it happened yesterday. I talked to her and saw on her webcam...Still never change..look the same. (hehe..^^..)..She was that time got no mood. It was all cuz of her freakin BF lah! Killing 'hym' is my no.1 thing in my list but she said no need to punish..Later 'God' will punish hym( padan muka kau...how dare you mess with her feelings!!!! Tk per..nanti Tuhan marah kau ..kau punyer pasal lah)..Then, we talked and talked....talked a long time..don't wanna say a lot..lazy to write talk,talk.....She says she can be my fren again. But one thing that is stopping me. I keep asking myself..Can I forgive myself for what I have done for my actions?..Isometimes keep blaming myself for what I did and done.
To other people, they can just forgive themselves like that. like easy for them to say. As for me, it is dfficult for me to forgive myself. Why? I don't even know why....Sometimes, I can't even explain what I have done. If only someone who will just help me to forgive myself....
Gotta go!..I can't write anymore!
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